Coping
"Have you tried...?" Probably, honestly I've had this disease For as long as memory allows Claws hooked around my throat and chest Taking my mind to the darkest corners What is it like to not fight your own mind? Taking walks and listening to the singing of birds Leaves crunching beneath boots tied tightly Breathing carefully, aware and grateful Knowing how precious every breath truly is Painting for pleasure and release Creating art that feels a part of me Capturing moments in time Somehow they're all the same blues I breathe I stretch I read I take breaks I spend time outside I spend time with community I connect to friends and family I eat well I work out I meditate I write I garden I care for others I bake I organize I downsize I've done it all and yet my mind? My mind still has those claws Buried so deep, they will never leave Lying with my back against the dirt and my eyes Gazing up at the stars, feeling the weight shift Watching the eastern sky turn from
